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不要, 不能.. 忘本!
珍惜所愛及給予自己愛的人
PS: 能力越大責任越大 三餐不能溫飽的人大有人在 每餐大魚大肉的人也不算少
微薄之力能讓世界更美好
THANK YOU 模范棒棒堂, 我愛黑澀會,
黑人及范范. (:
Labels: chapters, life journey, soul and mind
9:57 PM
Ah Beng's Day.
Myoe declare that every 5th of March is his day.
wth right? but if its my day i'll make it my birthday. :)
Anyway, we need to wear either pink or red top tomorrow or else.... will be dancing in front of the class... (but he focus more on the pink la..)
i do have pink and red top WHICH i can remember when was the last time i wore that :S so i went shopping yesterday. =) (pretty good reason wat. hehehe..) bought a white shoe, pink long tee (of coz!) and a green top which the design that i alway wanted!!! YEAH!
OH CRAP!! i just remember tmr got 100 words to pass up! SHIT!
ps: myoe did a pretty cool poll on his blog, go check it out!
Labels: chapters, college, shopping
2:06 AM
Updates with a Grateful heart.
01/03
Most of them will be in my flickr or picasa. Love my current room and house!! ;) oh, and housemates..
02/03
Did a personal test in myoe's class; I'm the Powerful Choleric type which is 1 out of 2 in 22 among my classmates. I agree that I am but... PC scored 14 and Perfect Melancholy's 13. I know I will take control when I need or want to and at the same time I'm an artistic person inside undeniable.
Jumper finally came back from the vet and Thank God he's getting better now (03/03).
03/03
During Writing for Diff Media, I thought it's gonna be quite boring (yes even though it's by one of my fav lect but I hate writing or more like formal writing :/ ) But today we had a 6 and 20 words challenge in class and a 100 words challenge with a theme for assignment instead! :D One of mine along with others was picked and paste on a bulletin board or something at the staircase in college. The few I can still remember are - Crushed. Together. Broke up. Much happier. (mine.)
High school party. I'm a dad. Fairy kissed a human. Became human.
20 words one I cant remember... when we get back our papers, see if I want to copy my friend's one anot. Well, at least the 6 words one since he mentioned that it will renew every 2 week.
When Miss Su's class started her class, Wai Yee called asking where am I, she wants to pass me her DSLR for my photography class later. And she came all the way up to Room9! Thank you so much!
So as I thought today can never be even better :)) , I came back from lunch break and found out that my angel gave me a note along with a mcd's tomato sauce!! I laughed and shook my head at the tomato sauce but I'm really happy for the surprise and the note (they were hidden under my class notes).
These few months has not been easy for me and I think these little push and love is what I really need. (crap I'm getting emotional right now... :S) And again I thought this is the best my day could go. When the class ends, Miss Su stopped me and said there's something for me. And she closes her power point....
and she wished me 'Happy Birthday.' I was so happy, my brain kinda delay a few sec and I went 'huh huh? no no... It's not my birthday.' 'Oh.. Then?' 'Er... It's a game...'
Yes, it's a game given by myoe on monday. My angel might be someone I'm not close at all in class or maybe he/she was just trying to avoid having to dance in front of the class after 3 weeks. But it doesn't matter I'm glad! I'm happy! Well done my angel and thank u so much! <3
I gave my mini surprise to my mortal, next is coming up soon! :) And I'm deeply in ♥ with the whole angel thingy as ppl helping out each another to pass gifts, notes etc in class which affect everyone!! All the your angel want me to...., your angel said..., this is from your angel etc. I think it's even better than V's day! 
If reduce, reuse and recycle is consider difficult then do your part for your mother earth for just 1 hour!
Labels: chapters, college, friends, life journey, my babies
8:58 PM
Looking Forward.
Thank God Im not Nico Riley in ep3 or 4 where she look back and realize how much she gave back to be with his Thank God good to be dead husband after so so so many years. But I would wish and want to be where her living and working status is. *heee..*
Many ppl came to me saying, what a pity bla bla bla. Seriously, Im over it, go tell him if you want to! Don't worry about me, I have and had nothing to lose and Im not at any near of 'lost and to be found department'. Im really Really REALLY happy where I am right now, loving and appreciating God, myself, my friends, my job, my cats and my cash all to myself. :)
Working tmr at 9am, new sem first day at 3pm, a 'date' tmr after class, I better get some early beauty sleep soon. Tmr is another important ermm.. day hehe 
ps: kenny thanks for the rose, appreciate that.
Labels: chapters, life journey
11:52 PM
Right FOR ME.
Don’t worry about whether or not he likes you. Don’t worry about whether he wants you or not, whether you are good enough for him.
Now reverse. Worry about how you feel, what you want, if he’s good enough FOR YOU.
If you change your perspective, you may just change your relationship pattern. Think of it as test-driving a car. You don’t worry if the car likes you sitting in its seat. You don’t worry if the car thinks your haircolor matches it’s shiny paint job. You worry about whether or not the car is right for you.
by, FreckledK to Hope.
I want a car!!! Well and of coz the right one for me. ;)
Labels: chapters, soul and mind
10:32 PM
Thankful.
Came back from penang, i miss the beach so much! >< I miss not having to worried about work, assignments, money (dad's paying LOL) and just the chilling wind, the coconut trees, the ah mohs and my book.
Back to KL, I hitted by alot of stuffs. It was like a slap on the face one by one. And I really thank God for the people around me! Going though my problems with me, giving me advises and also reminded me that when a door closed up in front of you, turn around and open the other.
I think I finally found back my sosial skills, well not as good as years back and it's better now!
Results are out but i still don't know mine and it's not fun knowing all your friends got it but not me... :( shit, where are the letter!!!
Back to college in another 15 days! Can't wait but I heard the time table sucks. Sign, whatever la. Dammit, just bring it on! ;)
Labels: chapters, college, festive, friends, Vocation
1:18 AM
It's.
It's fun, bullying a 27 yrs old guy along with two 19 yrs old girls at work.
It's nice, having steak and red wine for dinner with the housemates at home.
It's happiness, seeing my kids begging for a hugs and love when I'm finally home.
It's blessing, having girlfriends to listen and talk to in the car in front of my house for 3 hours under the starlight.
***
Hmm, so far only four it's la. I'm now totally in the relaxing mood having the wine glass beside me (mind u, I'm not sober or drunk k? -.-), just wanna chill. Been busy working, I have to admit my days isn't that perfect like it seen above but I'm counting my blessing. =)
The ups and downs had broke me apart and bought me back together again but this time ever stronger! I'm looking forward in whatever is ahead and incoming in front of me. And the journey that I will one day take. Will soon add them into my wishing list. ;)
For you people who passed by, take care. Will update more and soon, found some really interesting stuff to share.
Till then, God bless!
*edited*
Labels: chapters, soul and mind
9:36 PM
Vitamins.
been reading up alot lately. blogs, interviews, reviews, bla bla bla
even stuff i tot i would never need it, or writers who write bout stuff i think i don need to know, or even stuff that i tot will never relate to me, or read up ppls post for their life experiences which was like 5 years back. (from break ups to single to dating, married to gave birth, to being a wife, studying to working, traveling to enjoying life, being alone and having groupies, journey on seeking inner-self and change for the better etc..)
i guess we cant just assume* things and take for granted la.
all these vitamins for soul and mind are to be pump full !!
* ASS U and ME. so, u get it? ;)
Labels: chapters, life journey, reading, soul and mind
4:00 AM
Resolutions?new year resolutions - get more than one guy to flirt with xp - earn more and save more - get better grands - still stuck at m'sia with u all my dearest frens - get car lessen- work harder and party harder - happier person - a new hair style - try harder on not to think the best out of most ppl - try harder on hmm... not to contain ppl that much - love myself more =) i have loved and hated u 2008. i'm counting the blessing i am but turn out i cant really rmb much of my happy moment.. boohooohate u for all the rubbish altho i always believe that god will only give us wat he thinks and knows wat is best and wat we can handle but no doubt it will also cost alot in return in order to build character, personalities, etc etc. i just hope 2009 will be a happier and better one than 2008. 2008 u suck! lol -+:+- i have been telling myself, forcing myself, brainwashing myself that in order to meet the right one is to leave the wrong one.so ya, ah-hem right one (or next one) where the hell are u? u better come right into my face fast! =.= i know of someone who rather stick with the partner even tho she knows he doesnt seen like the one at all. i wish her all the best coz even her bf's best fren couldnt keep up his logical side of him much, how about u gal? she taking the risk (even her frens agreed on this)and i think i would say thank God mine is over for good... its still hurt i wont deny but wat else can we do? but to turn away and reduce as much pain as possible. its sad of coz, the person once so close and now? the perfect stranger? lol frens are all surprised bout us breaking up, hmm i guess. we both just sort of lied to ouself or close one eye on each other at if everything was fine. we gave up so much on each other and i thank God again that it wasnt too late to take all back. it wont be easy to seek the next one coz the precious one click to me so well that we both tot thats it, no point seeking any more. sigh oh God u better be fair!! :( and send the next one fast and much more better k? -.- so i guess thats it for u 2008, my last and truly. -+:+- im starting my work tmr >< wish me all the best........
Labels: chapters, job, life journey, resolutions
10:56 PM
Happy New Year!!
it was a very crazy new year's eve for me. xD went to simply penang in 1u for dinner, then we decided to walk to the curve but turn out my fellow frens didnt like it thr alot. so it was between going to sanctuary or go back to 1u.
while the rest were deciding, Hui and i suggested Baskin Robbin for ice cream!! ^^
so i didnt had my before new year starbucks but BR to treat myself! =) *love the lighting in thr ><* **we took this so many times to try getting a prefect one, we totally forgotten we were in a q, the casher was literally waiting for us ><**
ate it while walking back to 1u. before reaching 1u, 6 of us finnished up 4 pints! by the time we reach back to new wing, its already 11.15pm! o.o the singers were soso expect for hong kong singer Justin 侧田. poor thing, his fan wouldnt let him go. he had to sing a couple songs more without plug-in.
the fireworks from 1u were awesome! way better than the curve's! i just to like theirs but pretty much the same every time d la, from last yr to merdeka and this. and they started thier fireworks first.
the crowd let go their balloons the moment it strike 12am at 1u.
looking at the balloons flying away i told myself to let go everything behind to where it belong in 2008. and look forward to 2009! :)
we came from the park duh. and the fireworks were fired from the park. so at one point it came down so super near to us. ppl were jumping around to avoid them. and after a while we get fire dust all over us :S it even entered my eye -.- but its worth it i think lol i like the one like little fairies and little stars. i was too impressed to even snap the lil fairies fireworks, only got the stars. and not to mention i only have a 2.0 mp handphone. so bare with it la. haha
and towards the end, they were like giving out all they have to show how rich they are. and the sky went so bright it was at if its daytime.
and some how i manage to capture this too, looks pretty like end of the world than a new year huh?
its a pure jpg pic btw
anyhow, Happy New Year! a full year ahead, i wish myself and all of u a great one! :)
sidetrack 1:
after yamcha at ttdi, while heading back home. a brunch of malay 'young gangsters' had a fight at the junction before 1u. boys were running from our direaction with er... 'stuff' by the time the polices came, a boy was alredy lying on the floor.... only a few adults came down, his frens (mayb) and his gf stayed around. the rest of the gang ran -.- i tell u super fast okay? like lighting fast. i wonder when can these kids grow up......
sidetrack 2:
better start getting use to wearing seat belt at the back starting from today... :S
Labels: chapters, countdown, festive, friends, life journey
2:48 AM
It's Over.
honestly, im glad its over too. i never had the courage to tell u how i truly feel.
hui is right, if a person truly lover another, he wouldnt want her to go tru it alone, whether its tru pain or happiness.
i wouldnt want to become who u wish i will become coz i wouldnt want to watch one of my fav movie, A Walk To Remember and stone all the way tru coz u think we shouldnt be emotional. and how ironic that one of the reasons i fall for u bcoz u almost cried for A bridge to Terabithia.
i wouldnt wanna go tru it anymore if one of ur family member keep making decision for u or not giving us the blessing.
u can say all u want that we click or watever but if u cant accept even my smallest flaws and weaknesses and go tru it with me while im hoping to be a better person. its just selfish and not a single bit love available.
at the right moment i didnt cried, im sure u're glad to hear that. but pain was all over me, all the good times just fade away and left all my regrets. u know wat i meant.
i was too afraid to let go someone close and dear to me but NO! i deserve someone who truly love, care and accept the person that i am. or at least will go tru watever happen or journey with me.
thank u and good bye. im glad i realize this soon enough, and for the journey of knowing myself better.
Labels: chapters, life journey
8:04 PM
Nail Polish.
i had two diff colour (broze gold and shinny blue) of nail polish for the past 2 weeks i think. and i was trying the new one i bought this noon.
mixing the old shinny blue with the new glittery gold. and i realize how much effort i am putting into this, (and costing them to finnish so soon aikss) its been 2 yrs since i ever done nail polish for myself, (not counting the pedicure ><) so yah.
tmr im meeting my dad, he doesnt like these kind of thing, not to mention the colours im putting on lately.
so after putting on the latest colour, i decided to remove them.
i just washed my hands after done removing them, seeing them in front of the mirror, naked. i guess its time to take a break.
a break from trying my best covering (or making) up. a break to take a deeeepp breath. a break for my true self. and a break for u, my beloved nails.
i swear, i will buy nail care and nail base for all of u. ;)
xoxo from ur dearly.
Labels: chapters, life journey, nails polish
2:05 AM
Not as Planned.
sigh, i called mcd's for the 4th time and i still cant get place my order. freaking hungry now la!!!! arggg...
i told kim i want to fix back my sleeping hours during this 2 months hols but i guess it wont come true. in order to talk to him secretly, we both have to stay up awake.
i just bathe two of my kittens and i find out that i have to squeeze them a lil first before using the towel to dry them. why? if not 1 towel is not enough for 4. and also because they are made of fur. -.-
did alot of window shopping online, gonna get them the moment i get my money!!! but the list is freaking long le. i hope i will get alot of surveys answered la. haha
gonna get my starbucks before the end of this yr :( i miss coll already. boohoo
at least i get to sing k tmr!!! finaallyyy
Labels: chapters, shopping
10:13 PM
Merry Christmas!
i just heard the fireworks outside my window
but when i reach out to the window i cant see a single thing. this is the most uneventful and lonely Christmas i ever had, even tho i met back alot of old churchmates. and all my KL methodist mates still think im a methodist member. yes i was one loyal and faithful member but lefted. hmm, old memory but good ones. =)
Good news is that i got the job, hopefully people of Malaysia will be really supportive to give feedbacks. then i can earn more money LOL.
Merry Christmas folks! =)
i wont pray that i could see u tmr, wont wanna put up my hope, and blame myself for the disappointment again.
Labels: chapters, Christmas, job
12:02 AM
Too Free..
didnt went out yesterday and today..
im the only person among my gal frens that is on hols. and it suck big time!!
and i finally i got a call from one of the job application that i applied. pray for me that i'll get the job. it's super near my coll and i think the pay is not bad too.
take care. xoxo
Labels: chapters, job
10:34 PM
My New Pet!!woah! just got my new lappy - HP dv4(sorry susanna i just really don know how to get to k-tar :( )
its for 3,999 with a free 160GB ex-hard disk and another 2 yrs home service!! loving it, enjoying it, exploring too. feel so noob la first time handling a real vista. but having prob with izzi driver. hmmp, will fix that soon, so i don have to use the old one to online. the old one, my dad will bring back to his off to try to get it fixed and if its back to normal (keypad and sound system), will give it to my second sister. im not some evil big sister k? im paying 2k for my new laptop coz i felt bad for my dad when he was counting how much he will have to pay per month if he gets the installment. but guess wat? he wanted to get the installment so that if the new laptop got prob he could stop paying on that month and see wat the shop salesman has to say -.-
wow and thr goes for my 2k salary in the future after getting a job. should have think wisely before i talk (some more i saw it in a book i was reading yesterday night =.=) but then i was trying to be nice. sigh 2k ah.... fineee pftt
Labels: chapters, laptop
7:48 PM
By My...
been travel around kl alot lately, today i even went to jln ipoh by cab all alone at night. after having u as my close one i tend to seek for accompany but since u're not longer by my side, im back to traveling this city of mine alone again. passing by the city where thr are about a mill ppl living, seeing all their lights turn out, seeing klcc and kl tower lights blinking, cars surrounding me that might be going to the same destination with me in the highway, traveled half the city in one day and back to my room. all i want to be at is with u and hope to see u around when i get back home by my side.
its been a month and also a week since i last saw u.
Labels: chapters, in love
12:42 AM
The Perfect Ending?
wow~ i went out the whole day and just got back!!haha cant rmb when was the last time i had this much fun. even tho in the middle thr are some communication prob >< but overall i enjoyed. 
meet up with Kang Yee, a super old fren, the last time we met was 3 years ago.
ok, i went to coll at 8.45am, event ended at 3pm and also the perfect ending of sem 2 then went to 1u with kim, cayman and arashi for late lunch, had at BBQ chicken (love their food, service is much better now! and way faster too). then shopping. while shopping around he called.
rejected him a few times, so even tho im tired and suppose to teman my babies but i agreed to go out with him. (but then i found out that he kinda lie to me to get me out -.-) t cut the story short, some communication prob were here and thr but the meeting up with him bought back alot of memories. i'll keep the rest to myself =)
talked to Woon Hui in the car for 2hrs on the journey to cheras and back. we shared wat we went tru lately and i think we both growth up too and knowing that we both gotta love ourselves more. this caught me thinking wanna chat and update more but need to go d, hui got to work tmr.
well this is the rough idea what i had for today. will wanna go watch movies, shopping and yam cha more!!! tmr gonna clean up my notes and my room, spend more time with my babies too. it's late and i'm tired so sweet dreams! 
PS: the song preformed in the event is GOOD!
PS: i was disappointed to not see ur reply. i tot u would after not able to contact me for 4 days. i wanted to go back and check my inbox so badly...... sorry that i called, i got worried.
Labels: chapters, college, friends
1:22 AM
Ish! How to fix my time back?
i cant fix my time in my cbox and apply time to all my post!!  any of u know how to, do let me know ya! many thanks!
been spending hrs editing my blog, aiks i need to study for my psycho paper!! but i really don like la this sub... 
but THANK GOD, i very smart! i photocopy rach's notes.  its much easier to understand. but so how i wish i could turn back time so i could had studied more. ishh...
tips i get from Lizzie. John Piaget - Infancy Lawrence Theory of Moral Development -> Freud;s psychology cause - with Heinz dilemma => more essay focused -> Parenting (mayb)
off to my notes for now. :( pftt.. *scream from the bottom of my heart ' I DON WANT!!! '* my babies are all napping, how i wish i could too... ps: i hope u're gonna be ok up in genting. Labels: blog, chapters, college
4:26 PM
New Chapter babe!
crap! i actually created this new blog on the midnight before a paper~
Jumper just jumped in to hint mommy not to do so anymore by *walking* by the key pads, giving mommy random words.. :S
i'm so smart tried to study and cover all chapter for my PR paper, and when i reach coll like 8.50am, Jc told me 'don hav to study all, just cover about 6 will do.' sh*t why didnt i think of that??!! so my last question was all crap crap crap and more crapping... due to brain cells overly damaged
i know i tried too hard.. but i'll learn my lesson. it's just part of life, so deal with it! JUST DON FAIL ME!!
i'll start this new, whole differently... because it's a new start. =)
silly patch playing with himself while the rest are all napping good night my babies.♥
Labels: chapters, college, my babies
10:08 PM
I'm deeply in love with fashion, photography, lappy, audio and video, traveling (even tho i don't get to travel much boo), cat meow~ and FOOD.
I really hate secondhand smoke and feel sicked being around with people who are rude and mean!
Wish List
HP dv4 dream came true ;]
A new phone
Cat tree for my babies
A big cat bed
Get a good pay job for my 2 months holiday not so sure about good pay anot but i'm glad
Camera (DSLR ??)
35mm 2 lens action film camera (Star Camera)
35mm 4 lens film camera
More cloths, more shoes, more bags and more cash 
Home stay at least once this year
True love
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will keep the rest for next time
it's a new start for haley and that is why a new blog.
until i reach to my chapter post no. 1119 then mayb i'll explain wat happen to me that i seek for the new me.
and mayb why chapter no. 1120 too.
til then take care. ♥
不要, 不能.. 忘本!
珍惜所愛及給予自己愛的人
PS: 能力越大責任越大 三餐不能溫飽的人大有人在 每餐大魚大肉的人也不算少
微薄之力能讓世界更美好
THANK YOU 模范棒棒堂, 我愛黑澀會,
黑人及范范. (:
Labels: chapters, life journey, soul and mind
Ah Beng's Day.
Myoe declare that every 5th of March is his day.
wth right? but if its my day i'll make it my birthday. :)
Anyway, we need to wear either pink or red top tomorrow or else.... will be dancing in front of the class... (but he focus more on the pink la..)
i do have pink and red top WHICH i can remember when was the last time i wore that :S so i went shopping yesterday. =) (pretty good reason wat. hehehe..) bought a white shoe, pink long tee (of coz!) and a green top which the design that i alway wanted!!! YEAH!
OH CRAP!! i just remember tmr got 100 words to pass up! SHIT!
ps: myoe did a pretty cool poll on his blog, go check it out!
Labels: chapters, college, shopping
Updates with a Grateful heart.
01/03
Most of them will be in my flickr or picasa. Love my current room and house!! ;) oh, and housemates..
02/03
Did a personal test in myoe's class; I'm the Powerful Choleric type which is 1 out of 2 in 22 among my classmates. I agree that I am but... PC scored 14 and Perfect Melancholy's 13. I know I will take control when I need or want to and at the same time I'm an artistic person inside undeniable.
Jumper finally came back from the vet and Thank God he's getting better now (03/03).
03/03
During Writing for Diff Media, I thought it's gonna be quite boring (yes even though it's by one of my fav lect but I hate writing or more like formal writing :/ ) But today we had a 6 and 20 words challenge in class and a 100 words challenge with a theme for assignment instead! :D One of mine along with others was picked and paste on a bulletin board or something at the staircase in college. The few I can still remember are - Crushed. Together. Broke up. Much happier. (mine.)
High school party. I'm a dad. Fairy kissed a human. Became human.
20 words one I cant remember... when we get back our papers, see if I want to copy my friend's one anot. Well, at least the 6 words one since he mentioned that it will renew every 2 week.
When Miss Su's class started her class, Wai Yee called asking where am I, she wants to pass me her DSLR for my photography class later. And she came all the way up to Room9! Thank you so much!
So as I thought today can never be even better :)) , I came back from lunch break and found out that my angel gave me a note along with a mcd's tomato sauce!! I laughed and shook my head at the tomato sauce but I'm really happy for the surprise and the note (they were hidden under my class notes).
These few months has not been easy for me and I think these little push and love is what I really need. (crap I'm getting emotional right now... :S) And again I thought this is the best my day could go. When the class ends, Miss Su stopped me and said there's something for me. And she closes her power point....
and she wished me 'Happy Birthday.' I was so happy, my brain kinda delay a few sec and I went 'huh huh? no no... It's not my birthday.' 'Oh.. Then?' 'Er... It's a game...'
Yes, it's a game given by myoe on monday. My angel might be someone I'm not close at all in class or maybe he/she was just trying to avoid having to dance in front of the class after 3 weeks. But it doesn't matter I'm glad! I'm happy! Well done my angel and thank u so much! <3
I gave my mini surprise to my mortal, next is coming up soon! :) And I'm deeply in ♥ with the whole angel thingy as ppl helping out each another to pass gifts, notes etc in class which affect everyone!! All the your angel want me to...., your angel said..., this is from your angel etc. I think it's even better than V's day! 
If reduce, reuse and recycle is consider difficult then do your part for your mother earth for just 1 hour!
Labels: chapters, college, friends, life journey, my babies
Looking Forward.
Thank God Im not Nico Riley in ep3 or 4 where she look back and realize how much she gave back to be with his Thank God good to be dead husband after so so so many years. But I would wish and want to be where her living and working status is. *heee..*
Many ppl came to me saying, what a pity bla bla bla. Seriously, Im over it, go tell him if you want to! Don't worry about me, I have and had nothing to lose and Im not at any near of 'lost and to be found department'. Im really Really REALLY happy where I am right now, loving and appreciating God, myself, my friends, my job, my cats and my cash all to myself. :)
Working tmr at 9am, new sem first day at 3pm, a 'date' tmr after class, I better get some early beauty sleep soon. Tmr is another important ermm.. day hehe 
ps: kenny thanks for the rose, appreciate that.
Labels: chapters, life journey
Right FOR ME.
Don’t worry about whether or not he likes you. Don’t worry about whether he wants you or not, whether you are good enough for him.
Now reverse. Worry about how you feel, what you want, if he’s good enough FOR YOU.
If you change your perspective, you may just change your relationship pattern. Think of it as test-driving a car. You don’t worry if the car likes you sitting in its seat. You don’t worry if the car thinks your haircolor matches it’s shiny paint job. You worry about whether or not the car is right for you.
by, FreckledK to Hope.
I want a car!!! Well and of coz the right one for me. ;)
Labels: chapters, soul and mind
Thankful.
Came back from penang, i miss the beach so much! >< I miss not having to worried about work, assignments, money (dad's paying LOL) and just the chilling wind, the coconut trees, the ah mohs and my book.
Back to KL, I hitted by alot of stuffs. It was like a slap on the face one by one. And I really thank God for the people around me! Going though my problems with me, giving me advises and also reminded me that when a door closed up in front of you, turn around and open the other.
I think I finally found back my sosial skills, well not as good as years back and it's better now!
Results are out but i still don't know mine and it's not fun knowing all your friends got it but not me... :( shit, where are the letter!!!
Back to college in another 15 days! Can't wait but I heard the time table sucks. Sign, whatever la. Dammit, just bring it on! ;)
Labels: chapters, college, festive, friends, Vocation
It's.
It's fun, bullying a 27 yrs old guy along with two 19 yrs old girls at work.
It's nice, having steak and red wine for dinner with the housemates at home.
It's happiness, seeing my kids begging for a hugs and love when I'm finally home.
It's blessing, having girlfriends to listen and talk to in the car in front of my house for 3 hours under the starlight.
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Hmm, so far only four it's la. I'm now totally in the relaxing mood having the wine glass beside me (mind u, I'm not sober or drunk k? -.-), just wanna chill. Been busy working, I have to admit my days isn't that perfect like it seen above but I'm counting my blessing. =)
The ups and downs had broke me apart and bought me back together again but this time ever stronger! I'm looking forward in whatever is ahead and incoming in front of me. And the journey that I will one day take. Will soon add them into my wishing list. ;)
For you people who passed by, take care. Will update more and soon, found some really interesting stuff to share.
Till then, God bless!
*edited*
Labels: chapters, soul and mind
Vitamins.
been reading up alot lately. blogs, interviews, reviews, bla bla bla
even stuff i tot i would never need it, or writers who write bout stuff i think i don need to know, or even stuff that i tot will never relate to me, or read up ppls post for their life experiences which was like 5 years back. (from break ups to single to dating, married to gave birth, to being a wife, studying to working, traveling to enjoying life, being alone and having groupies, journey on seeking inner-self and change for the better etc..)
i guess we cant just assume* things and take for granted la.
all these vitamins for soul and mind are to be pump full !!
* ASS U and ME. so, u get it? ;)
Labels: chapters, life journey, reading, soul and mind
Resolutions?new year resolutions - get more than one guy to flirt with xp - earn more and save more - get better grands - still stuck at m'sia with u all my dearest frens - get car lessen- work harder and party harder - happier person - a new hair style - try harder on not to think the best out of most ppl - try harder on hmm... not to contain ppl that much - love myself more =) i have loved and hated u 2008. i'm counting the blessing i am but turn out i cant really rmb much of my happy moment.. boohooohate u for all the rubbish altho i always believe that god will only give us wat he thinks and knows wat is best and wat we can handle but no doubt it will also cost alot in return in order to build character, personalities, etc etc. i just hope 2009 will be a happier and better one than 2008. 2008 u suck! lol -+:+- i have been telling myself, forcing myself, brainwashing myself that in order to meet the right one is to leave the wrong one.so ya, ah-hem right one (or next one) where the hell are u? u better come right into my face fast! =.= i know of someone who rather stick with the partner even tho she knows he doesnt seen like the one at all. i wish her all the best coz even her bf's best fren couldnt keep up his logical side of him much, how about u gal? she taking the risk (even her frens agreed on this)and i think i would say thank God mine is over for good... its still hurt i wont deny but wat else can we do? but to turn away and reduce as much pain as possible. its sad of coz, the person once so close and now? the perfect stranger? lol frens are all surprised bout us breaking up, hmm i guess. we both just sort of lied to ouself or close one eye on each other at if everything was fine. we gave up so much on each other and i thank God again that it wasnt too late to take all back. it wont be easy to seek the next one coz the precious one click to me so well that we both tot thats it, no point seeking any more. sigh oh God u better be fair!! :( and send the next one fast and much more better k? -.- so i guess thats it for u 2008, my last and truly. -+:+- im starting my work tmr >< wish me all the best........
Labels: chapters, job, life journey, resolutions
Happy New Year!!
it was a very crazy new year's eve for me. xD went to simply penang in 1u for dinner, then we decided to walk to the curve but turn out my fellow frens didnt like it thr alot. so it was between going to sanctuary or go back to 1u.
while the rest were deciding, Hui and i suggested Baskin Robbin for ice cream!! ^^
so i didnt had my before new year starbucks but BR to treat myself! =) *love the lighting in thr ><* **we took this so many times to try getting a prefect one, we totally forgotten we were in a q, the casher was literally waiting for us ><**
ate it while walking back to 1u. before reaching 1u, 6 of us finnished up 4 pints! by the time we reach back to new wing, its already 11.15pm! o.o the singers were soso expect for hong kong singer Justin 侧田. poor thing, his fan wouldnt let him go. he had to sing a couple songs more without plug-in.
the fireworks from 1u were awesome! way better than the curve's! i just to like theirs but pretty much the same every time d la, from last yr to merdeka and this. and they started thier fireworks first.
the crowd let go their balloons the moment it strike 12am at 1u.
looking at the balloons flying away i told myself to let go everything behind to where it belong in 2008. and look forward to 2009! :)
we came from the park duh. and the fireworks were fired from the park. so at one point it came down so super near to us. ppl were jumping around to avoid them. and after a while we get fire dust all over us :S it even entered my eye -.- but its worth it i think lol i like the one like little fairies and little stars. i was too impressed to even snap the lil fairies fireworks, only got the stars. and not to mention i only have a 2.0 mp handphone. so bare with it la. haha
and towards the end, they were like giving out all they have to show how rich they are. and the sky went so bright it was at if its daytime.
and some how i manage to capture this too, looks pretty like end of the world than a new year huh?
its a pure jpg pic btw
anyhow, Happy New Year! a full year ahead, i wish myself and all of u a great one! :)
sidetrack 1:
after yamcha at ttdi, while heading back home. a brunch of malay 'young gangsters' had a fight at the junction before 1u. boys were running from our direaction with er... 'stuff' by the time the polices came, a boy was alredy lying on the floor.... only a few adults came down, his frens (mayb) and his gf stayed around. the rest of the gang ran -.- i tell u super fast okay? like lighting fast. i wonder when can these kids grow up......
sidetrack 2:
better start getting use to wearing seat belt at the back starting from today... :S
Labels: chapters, countdown, festive, friends, life journey
It's Over.
honestly, im glad its over too. i never had the courage to tell u how i truly feel.
hui is right, if a person truly lover another, he wouldnt want her to go tru it alone, whether its tru pain or happiness.
i wouldnt want to become who u wish i will become coz i wouldnt want to watch one of my fav movie, A Walk To Remember and stone all the way tru coz u think we shouldnt be emotional. and how ironic that one of the reasons i fall for u bcoz u almost cried for A bridge to Terabithia.
i wouldnt wanna go tru it anymore if one of ur family member keep making decision for u or not giving us the blessing.
u can say all u want that we click or watever but if u cant accept even my smallest flaws and weaknesses and go tru it with me while im hoping to be a better person. its just selfish and not a single bit love available.
at the right moment i didnt cried, im sure u're glad to hear that. but pain was all over me, all the good times just fade away and left all my regrets. u know wat i meant.
i was too afraid to let go someone close and dear to me but NO! i deserve someone who truly love, care and accept the person that i am. or at least will go tru watever happen or journey with me.
thank u and good bye. im glad i realize this soon enough, and for the journey of knowing myself better.
Labels: chapters, life journey
Nail Polish.
i had two diff colour (broze gold and shinny blue) of nail polish for the past 2 weeks i think. and i was trying the new one i bought this noon.
mixing the old shinny blue with the new glittery gold. and i realize how much effort i am putting into this, (and costing them to finnish so soon aikss) its been 2 yrs since i ever done nail polish for myself, (not counting the pedicure ><) so yah.
tmr im meeting my dad, he doesnt like these kind of thing, not to mention the colours im putting on lately.
so after putting on the latest colour, i decided to remove them.
i just washed my hands after done removing them, seeing them in front of the mirror, naked. i guess its time to take a break.
a break from trying my best covering (or making) up. a break to take a deeeepp breath. a break for my true self. and a break for u, my beloved nails.
i swear, i will buy nail care and nail base for all of u. ;)
xoxo from ur dearly.
Labels: chapters, life journey, nails polish
Not as Planned.
sigh, i called mcd's for the 4th time and i still cant get place my order. freaking hungry now la!!!! arggg...
i told kim i want to fix back my sleeping hours during this 2 months hols but i guess it wont come true. in order to talk to him secretly, we both have to stay up awake.
i just bathe two of my kittens and i find out that i have to squeeze them a lil first before using the towel to dry them. why? if not 1 towel is not enough for 4. and also because they are made of fur. -.-
did alot of window shopping online, gonna get them the moment i get my money!!! but the list is freaking long le. i hope i will get alot of surveys answered la. haha
gonna get my starbucks before the end of this yr :( i miss coll already. boohoo
at least i get to sing k tmr!!! finaallyyy
Labels: chapters, shopping
Merry Christmas!
i just heard the fireworks outside my window
but when i reach out to the window i cant see a single thing. this is the most uneventful and lonely Christmas i ever had, even tho i met back alot of old churchmates. and all my KL methodist mates still think im a methodist member. yes i was one loyal and faithful member but lefted. hmm, old memory but good ones. =)
Good news is that i got the job, hopefully people of Malaysia will be really supportive to give feedbacks. then i can earn more money LOL.
Merry Christmas folks! =)
i wont pray that i could see u tmr, wont wanna put up my hope, and blame myself for the disappointment again.
Labels: chapters, Christmas, job
Too Free..
didnt went out yesterday and today..
im the only person among my gal frens that is on hols. and it suck big time!!
and i finally i got a call from one of the job application that i applied. pray for me that i'll get the job. it's super near my coll and i think the pay is not bad too.
take care. xoxo
Labels: chapters, job
My New Pet!!woah! just got my new lappy - HP dv4(sorry susanna i just really don know how to get to k-tar :( )
its for 3,999 with a free 160GB ex-hard disk and another 2 yrs home service!! loving it, enjoying it, exploring too. feel so noob la first time handling a real vista. but having prob with izzi driver. hmmp, will fix that soon, so i don have to use the old one to online. the old one, my dad will bring back to his off to try to get it fixed and if its back to normal (keypad and sound system), will give it to my second sister. im not some evil big sister k? im paying 2k for my new laptop coz i felt bad for my dad when he was counting how much he will have to pay per month if he gets the installment. but guess wat? he wanted to get the installment so that if the new laptop got prob he could stop paying on that month and see wat the shop salesman has to say -.-
wow and thr goes for my 2k salary in the future after getting a job. should have think wisely before i talk (some more i saw it in a book i was reading yesterday night =.=) but then i was trying to be nice. sigh 2k ah.... fineee pftt
Labels: chapters, laptop
By My...
been travel around kl alot lately, today i even went to jln ipoh by cab all alone at night. after having u as my close one i tend to seek for accompany but since u're not longer by my side, im back to traveling this city of mine alone again. passing by the city where thr are about a mill ppl living, seeing all their lights turn out, seeing klcc and kl tower lights blinking, cars surrounding me that might be going to the same destination with me in the highway, traveled half the city in one day and back to my room. all i want to be at is with u and hope to see u around when i get back home by my side.
its been a month and also a week since i last saw u.
Labels: chapters, in love
The Perfect Ending?
wow~ i went out the whole day and just got back!!haha cant rmb when was the last time i had this much fun. even tho in the middle thr are some communication prob >< but overall i enjoyed. 
meet up with Kang Yee, a super old fren, the last time we met was 3 years ago.
ok, i went to coll at 8.45am, event ended at 3pm and also the perfect ending of sem 2 then went to 1u with kim, cayman and arashi for late lunch, had at BBQ chicken (love their food, service is much better now! and way faster too). then shopping. while shopping around he called.
rejected him a few times, so even tho im tired and suppose to teman my babies but i agreed to go out with him. (but then i found out that he kinda lie to me to get me out -.-) t cut the story short, some communication prob were here and thr but the meeting up with him bought back alot of memories. i'll keep the rest to myself =)
talked to Woon Hui in the car for 2hrs on the journey to cheras and back. we shared wat we went tru lately and i think we both growth up too and knowing that we both gotta love ourselves more. this caught me thinking wanna chat and update more but need to go d, hui got to work tmr.
well this is the rough idea what i had for today. will wanna go watch movies, shopping and yam cha more!!! tmr gonna clean up my notes and my room, spend more time with my babies too. it's late and i'm tired so sweet dreams! 
PS: the song preformed in the event is GOOD!
PS: i was disappointed to not see ur reply. i tot u would after not able to contact me for 4 days. i wanted to go back and check my inbox so badly...... sorry that i called, i got worried.
Labels: chapters, college, friends
Ish! How to fix my time back?
i cant fix my time in my cbox and apply time to all my post!!  any of u know how to, do let me know ya! many thanks!
been spending hrs editing my blog, aiks i need to study for my psycho paper!! but i really don like la this sub... 
but THANK GOD, i very smart! i photocopy rach's notes.  its much easier to understand. but so how i wish i could turn back time so i could had studied more. ishh...
tips i get from Lizzie. John Piaget - Infancy Lawrence Theory of Moral Development -> Freud;s psychology cause - with Heinz dilemma => more essay focused -> Parenting (mayb)
off to my notes for now. :( pftt.. *scream from the bottom of my heart ' I DON WANT!!! '* my babies are all napping, how i wish i could too... ps: i hope u're gonna be ok up in genting. Labels: blog, chapters, college
New Chapter babe!
crap! i actually created this new blog on the midnight before a paper~
Jumper just jumped in to hint mommy not to do so anymore by *walking* by the key pads, giving mommy random words.. :S
i'm so smart tried to study and cover all chapter for my PR paper, and when i reach coll like 8.50am, Jc told me 'don hav to study all, just cover about 6 will do.' sh*t why didnt i think of that??!! so my last question was all crap crap crap and more crapping... due to brain cells overly damaged
i know i tried too hard.. but i'll learn my lesson. it's just part of life, so deal with it! JUST DON FAIL ME!!
i'll start this new, whole differently... because it's a new start. =)
silly patch playing with himself while the rest are all napping good night my babies.♥
Labels: chapters, college, my babies
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